My Thougtts

When I first saw you I was afraid to talk to you When I first talked to you I was afraid to hold you When I first hold you I was afraid to love you Now that I have loved you I’m afraid to lose you And sometimes love hurts And if it doesn’t Then it's not love at all Hold on to your love Before they slip away Else you can never get them back And I died the day you left me I'm happy I lived for the time you loved me Until I was there I cried myself to sleep While I had you, I fell asleep with a gentle smile on my face Before I lost you I worried...

FINAL FANTASY

Being drunk at suicide point And being weary at your life I question myself a million times Is that what I loved you for? And ask you to set me free To this life for you and that’s me I put a hundred spades in my mind To dig out your memories filled Being honest I roamed in edge of time To battle all your fears and pain around I realize later I was the pain you had Is that what I should die for? For times I love and days I’ll love For life we should live in and dreams we should see I wish to be your dream that comes into reality And dance in...

WORDS

WORDS What it looks like is not always true. What it is is never what you expect it to be. Today I fall short of words that I used to play with. I’ve got nothing to be it. This bloody time is so very rude that is beat the shit out of me. People pretend to be happy but their internal esteem always shows off. I was desperately trying to be happy but I never tried to show off. It might not always but seems like only happiness in this world is money, status and power. I may not have it. But most of the times it made me so desperate that I could not...

MOONLIGHT SONATA

Moonlight Sonata that plays in the thunder I think I am so unreal, I was true I guess I think I was the worse but you shaded my thought Symphony is so unreal, under my demise just smile Roots hold the tree, Branches keep it firm Use your illusion to see it the other side Other hill is green, other mountain is white I, hated by time, need no reason Loved by tide is so happy that I can’t laugh Can’t pretend to smile can’t pretend to be happy The more I pretend the more I am sad Just think it the way you are happy If you are happy, think I’m smiling If...

FOR ME

It hurts when you smile When I can see the agony within you It hurts when you laugh When I can feel the pain inside it Mandatory suicide that’s all you can think off Of all dreams and wishes you could know off And an alien stood in the fields of land Thinking and know not how to react Seems like the yesterday everything was fine Could have been much more better Could have been much more full of life As dead they seems to you now and then So nowadays when you smile It hurts so extreme that It agonize my pain You would never give up this restrain You...

VISIONS OF FUTURE

I’ve been wrong and I’ve been down It’s been a perfect ending all around I’ve tried to explain but god wouldn’t hear I’ve got all but and I can’t explain this tears Seems like all my dreams would be all in dreams And each night I fight myself and wake up in screams I’ve tried to keep things right to people around But it’s so sophisticated that I’ll be six feet under ground People don’t try to understand and when time is out A step with me seems to be all just like battle fought I’ve lived life and I know it’s all been fade away People just leave...