WORDS

WORDS
What it looks like is not always true. What it is is never what you expect it to be. Today I fall short of words that I used to play with. I’ve got nothing to be it. This bloody time is so very rude that is beat the shit out of me. People pretend to be happy but their internal esteem always shows off. I was desperately trying to be happy but I never tried to show off. It might not always but seems like only happiness in this world is money, status and power. I may not have it. But most of the times it made me so desperate that I could not only shed tears. Today I take an oath of the almighty father who is keeping me alive to see a lot; I promise that I will earn that much of money that it would be practically impossible to manage. If there’s anyone who wants me to…….. Forget it!
There is. It’s just that it’s not the right time to do it I guess.
Have you ever been left alone? I’ve been. You would not want to know it but to tell you the fact you would like to be dead rather than to be left alone. You can see faces laughing at you. You can hear whisper shouting at you, cursing you a million times. Still you got to have the rage that burns your desire throughout days and night, every single moment.
Words are the greatest weapons of men and words are the greatest enemies of men. Words can heal wounds and words can set a fire on your wounds. Words makes you happy, words makes you sad. Besides words there is another weapon that you can bring down a man. Betrayal!!! I have been betrayed, times and again, under severe circumstances, sometimes they were friends, sometimes they were relatives and sometimes they were outsiders. But I am so sure about one person who won’t betray me. I know it for sure. The one at least, who would notice me if I am sad.
This is why I fear a lot. I’ve lost almost everything besides a couple of people. Now if I loose any of them I would have no reason to live or speaking truly I would be practically dead. No one would be there by the side caring about me, not at least who would notice me. I would be a common face in the crowd, just a common man. I fear a lot if I had to see that day. I would have neither beginning nor an end. I would have nothing to loose which is so dangerous.
I think this life gone; over I thank it a lot. God I wish it to be well and if I got rebirth next time please give me a fate full of love; don’t need riches of the world. Just try to keep me smiling and always secure my love till the end of time. Prayers and this is my third prayer I mean it from the core of my heart and I guess you know it I don’t need to explain. Goodbye this life.



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